Story Time! Prayer VS True Prayer

What is True Prayer?! It’s not the prayer I was first introduced to as a child around 8.
Story time!
I went to a Christian primary school for a couple years, wait for it! Not because my family was religious, they are very much not. But it was because the school was directly across the road from our home. Convenience for the win!
A memory I have that is still so vivid from this time was trying again and again to fly.
Yep I was convinced that if I prayed to God to please, please, please let me fly! All while I stood on top of a large wooden outdoor table and relentlessly jumped off after each prayer, God would eventually answer my prayer and I would fly!!
I lasted a good while jumping again and again and again, until my Dad walked out, looked at me strangely and said ‘what are you doing?!’
Needless to say I didn’t fly…8 year old me was disappointed but then continued to treat God like Santa, a bloke you asked for stuff from until my teens when life took a new age turn, I’m sure I’ll share more about this another time.
The reason I share this little story is because it is such a great illustration of conventional prayer and how it is about asking, demanding, begging and shouting at God to do stuff in the world.
True prayer is pretty much the exact opposite, we let go of everything we think we want, need, desire, carry, think, fear, EVERYTHING, and put nothing before God. It’s from this place we realise at last that it’s only Gods Love that we really needed all along and in letting go of everything else, we are actually removing all the blocks to that very Love!
How I personally do this is: I visualise first everything in front of my face going into Gods hands, letting it go, then gently expand until everything in the entire universe is handed over into Gods hands. And then I say, ‘I put nothing before you, I want peace above all else.’ Then I melt away into the knowing that I need nothing here and Gods Love is all I do truly desire.
As the A Course in Miracles puts it so beautifully:
"Prayer is a stepping aside; a letting go, a quiet time of listening and loving. ²It should not be confused with supplication of any kind, because it is a way of remembering your holiness. ³Why should holiness entreat, being fully entitled to everything Love has to offer? ⁴And it is to Love you go in prayer. ⁵Prayer is an offering; a giving up of yourself to be at one with Love. ⁶There is nothing to ask because there is nothing left to want." S-1.I.5:1-6

I hope this is truly helpful.

All my Love,

Kristy xx⁠